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Watch the Sky- Something Corporate

I'm lost at sea, the radio is jamming, but they won't find me
I swear it's for the best, and then your frequency is pulling me in closer till I'm home
and I've been up for days, I finally lost my mind,
and then I lost my way, I'm blistered but I'm better
and I'm home

I will crawl, there's things that are worth giving up, I know, but I won't let this get me,
I will fight, you live the life you're given with the storms outside,
somedays all I do is watch the sky

This room's too small, it's only getting smaller, up against the wall,
I'm slowly getting taller, in this wonderland, your skin feels so familiar
and I'm home

I'll crawl, there's thing that are worth giving up I know, but I won't let this get me,
I will fight, you live the life you're given with the storms outside,
somedays all I do is watch the sky, and somedays
all I do is watch the sky

and I think I, I could use a little break
today was a good day
and I think I, I could use a little break,
but today was a good day

...and it's a deep sea, in which I'm floated, and still I sink to think that I must...

crawl, there's things that are worth giving up I know, when you can't bare to carry me,
I'll fight, you live the life you're given with the storms outside
and somedays all I do is watch the sky
today was a good day
today was a good day...

After my last such-philosophical blog about moving to Auckland, it's time for an update.

To tell the honest truth, I don't miss home as much as I thought I would- actually that's a lie, I knew it would be exciting as I thought it would be here. I miss my family and dog (and maybe my wireless internet and real grass on my door step) and that's about it, my new life up here is perfect, the people I have met up here, are like you can never imagine, they are amazing and so helpful and nice.

The only problems up here so far have been learning to juggle my social life and my assignments. It's definately a struggle when you have 3 assignments on the go at once, but here I sit, alive and well with all 3 of them finished, and anxious to see what my first ever marks for uni will be. In theory, I would love to maintain a B grade average, that is my goal, and anything higher than that would be amazing.

I have already decided that I will be changing courses next year, its in the same department, but it totally suits me, and I am glad that I am going to be doing it. This year won't go to waste at all, as the first year of hospitality management will go arm-in-arm with the new Event Management Degree AUT will be offering next year. I am totally excited that I have finally come to a realisation of what I want to do in life. You might see me managing the next Big Day Out, so watch out, you might wanna keep me as your friend for VIP tickets to meet the bands, haha!


Also, it's starting to get cold! Dammit! Summer is definately gone!

I also spend too much money on CD's!

So, that is my update!

Before I start, in all honestly, this is going to be the most honest thing you have ever heard from me.

29th February 2008 brings many things, positive and maybe negative? On the optimistic side, alot of the negative things will soon turn into positives in no time.

To start off, today's a leap day, once every 4 years. Along with being a leap day, today brings the official last day of summer. Although still warm, in sense, autumn is here, and it won't be long until it starts getting cold. Dwelling on the negative of Autumn, and soon winter, never the less, the year will come around and soon summer 08/09 will be here, hot as ever, thanks to global warming, and the large ozone hole over New Zealand.

Its not just about it being a leap day, today also brings my last day before I move to Auckland for University. In theory, I am leaving my friends behind, my family, my dog, my house- where I have spent the last 9 or so years; most of my childhood & also my job. I'm taking with me, my clothes, my music, my money, myself and of course my memories- I sure as hell ain't leaving them behind. But it doesn't stop there, moving to Auckland may mean a brand new start, brand new house, brand new friends- but it doesn't mean I am leaving behind the things I live for and love so so much. Yes, I am living in Auckland, I'm not living in a far far away land, which looking on the positive side means I can balance both sets of everything, parallels; with me on both sides, but maybe not at the same time and maybe in the middle when I'm on the bus to either/or.

Wether you understand me or not, I needed to get this out somewhere, and let somebody, anybody, know my feelings on my situation because In a way I needed a comfort, to justify what I'm doing, what I've had, what I'm having, and what I will always have.

I am adiment, this move is a good decision, and don't worry, I will still be the same person inside wherever I am, and will never ever forget where I came from who my real friends are and the memories I have held close to me throughout the years.

"Why put a new address on the same old loneliness." In some ways, this song lyric, describes everything, and my reasons for going to Auckland. If you don't understand, for me it means- why stay where I was and continue as I was, and why put another label on and pretend it was a new start, when really I can move and have a fresh start, but still be on both sides of the fence.

I guess the entire situation is like the apricot I ate today- I am the stone, and the fruit you can split in half, break away the stone and eat it that way, or you can keep the whole apricot together and have it all at once.

Currently listening :

I found Pretty. Odd. leak.

But all the songs are password protected.

Halo!

So, So cliche' to say that I haven't posted in awhile, buts its the truth, its fact, unless you count August 07 as a short time.

So, Summer 2007/2008 has been AMAZING- I'm not even going to start to describe it, but a few words would be sun, surf, burn, family, friends, alcohol & endless amounts of fun.

Not only is summer still got a month or two to go but so far it has brought nothing but good memories, and will also bring the prospects of starting university.

So after much contemplation throughout 2007, I had decided that I would stay in my home city and study at the local university, convenient, close to home, close to friends and family I figured. But after new year it finally dawned upon me that this wasn't what I wanted. I wanted a new experience, something out of the ordinary, even if it doesn't involve free food & rent at home. So, even though I am studying the same thing, I have decided to go to AUT in Auckland, they offer great quals and Auckland is just amazing.

Another thing that fueled that decision was the amount of people I now know in Auckland, including a really good friend (Hi! Petruschka) and the amount of people that I don't keep in contact with in /don't keep in contact with me in Hamilton. As sad as it seems, the only people I will miss in Hamilton will be my Family, Family Friends, Dog and of course a few of my best friends.

But Hey! Auckland is only a bit more than an hour away from Hamilton, so go figure, its not like I'm leaving everything behind, except my high school life- which I'm semi-glad is dead and buried, because it means freedom- literally.

So its time to get out there in the world, study hard, work hard and have fun. If you see me in Auckland, come say hi.


On a completely different note- Big Day Out 2008. One of the most eventful/fun/exciting/exhausting/sweaty days I have ever had, and the day that I reclaimed my love for Mountain Dew, damn that cold Mountain Dew was good. So I can add to my list of bands seen-

Arcade Fire (if you ever get a chance to see Arcade Fire live, DO IT, you won't regret it one bit)
Shy Child (same with these guys)
Spoon
Bjork
Shihad
Rage Against the Machine
Krafty Kuts
Dizzee Rascal
The Electric Confectionaires
Anti-Flag
Grinspoon
The Bleeders.

Awesome as day with Bryce, Kirsty and Jeremy, hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.

Sadly I missed LCD Soundsystem and Brand New, tried to get through the Rage crowd, but it was near impossible, as they were both on the same time as one another. Better luck next time

Remember- Lifes a party- crash it.

Peace


I Love You Nana

Here goes an attempt to put life into a few sentences.

I guess I will start with the not so good stuff first...

Life's so hectic at the moment, mainly with school. I am digging a deeper hole with school work at the moment, assessments coming at me left, right and centre. I can get them done, but I have no motivation to do so, seeming that it's my last year it is alot of repitition from the last but on a harder scale. Life is busy, but I just tend to push all the busy stuff aside, which is bad.

Other than school, life is good, social circle is good I guess, although it is winter, so it's the same old same old every weekend. It's officially the first day of spring soon, which means SUMMER! Summer is when the fun starts, and Mr Same Old Same Old gets pushed aside. As the days push on, winter slowly creeps into hiding and the excitement of talking about what we are going to do this summer with friends builds. That's how like to look at it anyway.

Got a new job, so that's all good. I have been training at other locations around the city as the store I am going to be working in doesn't open until late August. My manager is lovely and the people I will be working with seem like a good bunch! Oh, and the pay is good. That's another perk!

Roughly 8 weeks left until my last year at school ends, then hello final exams, christmas and of course, summer! It's a little daunting, I guess leaving the assessment and workload behind is a good thing, but the social side of leaving school is going to be tough, as all my friends are in one place 5 days a week, 4 terms a year. I suppose as one door closes another one opens. One of those door's is University, but I'm not thinking about that right now, that's all I have been thinking about all year, and now it's time to focus on what's going to get me into University. Although the prospect of heading over to the USA on exchange for my second year to the University of California is quite exciting.

So, as life moves on, memories are gained, doors close and new ones open and no matter what, summer is always around the corner to cheer you up.

Jared

Cellular Phone
Jack's Mannequin

I have become increasingly
Overwhelmed but not discouraged
And soon I'll leave the infirmary
Feeling well
But lacking courage
Courage
And now the rockets fly above
Passing over
Cape Canaveral
There's the woman with the drugs
In the café
By the launch pad
By the launch pad
And she is 'gonna
Ring me up
On my Cellular Phone
So I know I'm not alone
In a world full of vampires
Come on darling
Talk me down
On that Cellular Phone
Because I can't get home
I'm a slave to the wires
I've done this before
I will do it more
I have become increasingly
Overwhelmed when
I'm in public
I'm not so patient when they stare
There's a fighter
Somewhere underneath this skin and bones
And do you know what I mean?
What I mean when I say that this girl
Has got a thing for my machine
And she is 'gonna
Ring me up
On my Cellular Phone
So I know I'm not a lone
In a world full of Vampires
Come on darling
Talk me down
On that cellular phone
Because I can't get home
I'm a slave to the wires
I've done this before
I've done this before
But I have given everything and more
Sometimes convinced I have the world to carry
Every day is war
And rockets fly from dusk 'til dawn
I won't be shaken
If ever there's a time
Where I am gone just know I'm waiting
For you to ring
For you to ring...
Me up on my Cellular Phone
So I know I'm not alone
In a world full of vampires
Come on darling
Talk me down
On that Cellular Phone
Because I can't get home
I'm a slave to the wires
I've done this before
I will do it more

Fries, McMahon and friday night is the best feeling ever haha.

Now I need a vodka, lolll but I need to drive later so NO!

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Check her icons out if you like jack's, death cab etc